Wednesday, February 29, 2012

Grumpy

Not my usual happy self. Just grumpy. I don't feel like I have lost any weight this week. I have gone 3 days without walking, (grumpy!) and since tomorrow is weigh-in, I'm just not going to walk tonight either. Not going to take that chance of my muscles retaliating and hanging onto fluid. I've been 100% perfect OP, I've logged my food and liquids. Yet the (bathroom) scales are not budging. Yes, I know there are other ways to judge success besides the stupid scale. I'm doing the program. That is success. But week before last I stayed the same. Last week I was up 0.6. And the worst thing of all is that I don't FEEL like anything is happening. There's this IBS thing that's messin' with me as well, but there's nothing I can do about that. Or at least everything I try to do about it (in the way of medication) has been futile. 

I know how I operate. I'm just afraid if I don't start seeing some scale action, some looser-clothing action, etc., I'm going to get discouraged and drop out. I've committed to doing this, though, and I'm going to stick with it. I just hate that my bump-in-the-road has come along so early in the journey. 


It makes me really grumpy. 

And I'm getting that scratchy feeling in my eyes and nose that comes just before a cold virus attacks me. 


That makes me grumpy too. 


The boys made a mess in the kitchen last night and didn't clean it up. Now I have to look at it all day (because I refuse to clean up after a 55 year old and a 31 year old!)

That makes me even grumpier. 

Okay, a little later I'm going to read some of my personal blog posts about perspective, and count my blessings for a while. But for now I'm just going to wallow in a big pool of 

Grumpy.

Monday, February 27, 2012

Sunday: A Day Of Rest

Well, not really. I can't remember when I actually rested on a Sunday. It's the first day of my work-week, and I work til 9 p.m.  While all my friends are enjoying their Sunday-afternoon naps.  And since the check-engine light came on in my car this weekend, I had to rearrange my schedule to allow me to get it checked out.  Translated:  Instead of doing my contract work this morning (Monday) before starting my "real" job at noon, I had to do my contract work on Sunday morning. Translated:  I missed church, and instead was tethered to the desk from about 9 a.m. to 9 p.m., with a couple of breaks for lunch and dinner.  

All that to say this:  I did not get my walk in yesterday.  Lots of people recommend taking a day off, but I find it generally works better for me not to miss a day. Keep the momentum going kind-of-thing, if you know what I mean.  Nevertheless, I took A Day Of Rest From Walking yesterday.  Today is my shift-and-a-half day, and I won't finish tonight until 11 pm or later.  I'm telling myself that I will take my dinner break this evening and get my walk in.  I know it will spell trouble if I skip two days in a row.   

I've been tracking faithfully, and staying OP since my weigh-in on Thursday. That's a great accomplishment for me.  However, I still don't feel like I'm losing.  I do feel better for all the walking, though, and I know that in the long run, it is all for the best. 

Besides.  Rest is way over-rated.  

Thursday, February 23, 2012

I Should Have

Just ate the damn Girl Scout cookies anyway. I was so excited that I was able to shove the stupid dinky little plastic tray back inside the box, shut the darn thing up and cover it with some paper towels. I didn't even lick my fingers to savor the microscopic shavings of chocolate. No. I wiped them on the paper towels. 
All day my butt, my legs and my arms have hurt. I had to take drugs during the night because my legs ache so badly. I have never before been able to say that "I walked 10 miles in four days". But today I could say that. (And I said it quite often, thank you very much, both to myself and anyone else who would listen.)
I didn't really feel like I lost a ton of weight this week. I stayed the same last week. I was kinda sort okay with that, because I hadn't been tracking 100%, but it still pissed me off. 
I did 80% better with tracking this week. Okay, so I blew it over the weekend. But... hey. I walked ten frickin' miles in four days this week!! And was perfectly OP beginning Sunday afternoon. 


And I seriously gained 0.6 lb this week. Come on. What's up with that? Yeah, yeah, I know the answer "my muscles [oh my aching muscles!!] are retaining fluid from being worked [abused!!!] from walking ten miles in the past four days". 


ummm hmmmm. If I had known for sure that I wasn't going to show a loss, I'd have ate the stupid cookies. And the Hershey Kisses. And the Mexican take-out.

No, not really. I'm just kidding. [I think...]

Well, if nothing else, I'm good and pissed off about it now, and I'm determined to show that Satan of a scale that I'm in control. I'm gonna do my very best to be 100% OP the entire week. Yes, I'm planning to walk another 10-12 miles this week too. And if I gain weight again, I swear to all that is good in this world, I will throw my treadmill in the river, burn my tennis shoes, and use my DVDs for skeet targets. 

But that won't happen again... will it?

I Will Not

I will not eat those Girl Scout cookies on the counter.

I WILL not eat those Girl Scout cookies on the counter.

I will NOT eat those Girl Scout cookies on the counter.

Not to worry. DH will finish them off this evening, I'm sure. Devil that he is. In the meantime...

I WILL NOT EAT THOSE GIRL SCOUT COOKIES ON THE COUNTER.

Just like I did not eat those Dunkin Donuts that he brought home. Or the Hershey Kisses that he brought home. Or the Mexican takeout that he brought home.

Grrrrrr. I'm asking for an entire box of Bravo Stars tonight!!!!

What is that saying? That which doesn't kill us only serves to make us stronger. 

So where do I order my tights and my cape?

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

Mileage

Just so you can be as impressed as I was: When I logged my miles last night on the Walk Social page, in the previous 24 hours, walkers had logged 2,646 miles. Some walkers did the prescribed amount of 4 miles, (like me). Others did more, some did less. At any rate, it was quite impressive. I'm feeling it, too!! Happy that I'm getting a workout in my shoulders and arms as well. I can feel the ache in those muscles as well as my butt and thighs. I'm still amazed at how high those ladies can step and kick. Maybe when some of the chub around my waist is gone, I can do that too. Right now I just think it's physically impossible to kick my legs high enough to be parallel with the floor. And certainly not as fast as they do it!! I can hardly lift my feet off the floor fast enough to keep up with them. Can't wait to compare the ease with which I do this at the end of the challenge! 

So far I have 7 miles logged in three days. (Should have been 9, but I only survived 1 mile out of 3 on the first day.) 

Today's assignment: 2 miles. 

NSV - Back to tracking food. Yay! 

Happy Tuesday!

Monday, February 20, 2012

21

No, I'm not celebrating my 21st birthday.  I did that 32 years ago.  :-)
No, I didn't have a winning hand at Black Jack
Yes, that's the legal age to drink alcohol in my state

So what's the significance of 21 for me?  Well, I have this friend named Edna.  I spoke of her in my last post.  She lives Up North, but came home last fall for our high school class reunion.  I noticed a Facebook post that she mentioned a 21-day challenge on the Leslie Sansone FB page.  Since my latest Treadmill Adventure sorta fizzled out, I thought I needed a kick in the butt to get me back on track with some sort of work-out routine.  So I checked out the challenge.  

Basically, you follow a prescribed regimen of varied walking distances each day.  Sounded reasonable to me.  I've used her Walk Away The Pounds videos in the past and have found them just about perfect for me.  From her FB page there's a tab called Walk Social.  You go there and register (or simply sign in using FB).  There are a few of Leslie's videos available to use, but I also had one of her DVDs here at home.  The first assignment was a FAST 3-mile walk for the first day. That video was available on the WS page.  Ummmm..... Suffice it to say my chubby little legs/feet simply would not move that fast.  I huffed and puffed and made it through the first mile, though I'm sure step for step I didn't keep up with them.  While they walked a mile, I probably did 3/4 of a mile.  But, hey.  It's a start.  One of my favorite WWisms by my favorite WW leader Linda is this:  "Start where you are right now."   Kind of a no-brainer, because that's all you can do.  But sometimes we just need to hear that where we are right now is okay.  It's the "start" part that counts.                  

Yesterday's assignment was a 2-mile walk. I couldn't find that video on the site, so I pulled out the DVD (thanks for lending it to me forever ago, DJ... I'm finally using it!!) and got the 2-mile walk in.  Kept up with them pretty good on this one.  As a side note, though, I am somewhat distressed about something.  I'm just a chubby white girl, no particular rhythm or soul, but I'm finding out that as I have become older, I am even less coordinated than ever, and I pretty much suck at adding any moves other than the basics.  I want to do Zumba.  But if I can't even get some of these basic workout moves down, I'm not sure I'll ever get there.  Maybe as the chub comes off I'll get a little of my coordination back.  Perhaps when I can concentrate on other things besides breathing and staying upright, I can manage to add a little more ooomph to my step and spice it up a little.  

The DVD workouts are more than just walking in place.  It's a pretty decent workout for upper body too.  There's lots of arm action going on as well.  And, hey... I see some of those girls breaking a sweat too!!  Just after two days of it, I can feel that soreness in my butt, arms, shoulders, and calves. YAY!

Today's assignment is a brutal 4-mile walk.  I'm a reasonable enough person to know that if 2 miles is kickin' my butt, then I'd be risking life and limb to try to make it 4 miles at one time.  So, I have broken it down to two 2-mile sessions.  I've just finished my first session, and my heart rate has returned to normal.  I'll be starting work in just a few minutes, and it's Monday, which means it's my extra-long shift-and-a-half work day/night.  But at some point, I'll take a break and get in the final 2 miles. 

You're encouraged to log your miles on the Walk Social page, and they're keeping a running 24-hour tally.  I am amazed at these people.  Obviously they've been working on their fitness way longer than me, as some of these people are going way, WAY above and beyond the challenge regimen, and are posting INSANE workouts.  (I'm just jealous because I want to be them. ha!)  I'll post my 4 miles once I've completed the next session.  I can't wait to see how many miles will be logged by the end of the evening.  

Tomorrow it's back to 2 miles.  Maybe I'll be able to ace it by then.  :-) Wish me Luck!

Saturday, February 18, 2012

Don't Quit!

Stayed the same this week. I "flunked" the Valentine's Day thing, and ate some scrumptious things that were definitely not points friendly. Yesterday, I spent the day with my grandbabies, and unwisely had a piece or two (or three) of their Valentine candy. I'm feeling a little out of control. So far, when I have slipped a little bit, I have been able to pick myself up and get back on track. I'm reaching really deep this time to make it happen again. :-)

Another of our "olden days" WW buddies joined us on Thursday night. So now there are four of us: Myself, DJ, Teresa, and Barbara. It's fun to do it as a group. After our meetings, it's Girls' Night Out, and we take turns choosing somewhere to go for dinner. Love that GNO!!!

I graduated from high school in 1976. Yeah, back in the olden days when we had to write our homework on the cave walls with hammer and chisel. We had our 35th class reunion this past October. I'm from a small town, and our graduating class wasn't that large. Even so, reunion attendance represented only about 25-30% of our classmates. Several folks traveled quite a ways to attend. I suppose the farthest was a gal who flew in from Pennsylvania. I don't remember Edna from high school, but since we started the planning process about a year ago, we had become Facebook friends. We've talked/joked/lamented about our weight issues over that period of time, and it just so happened that we re-joined WW at the same time. We keep up with each other's progress as the weeks go by, and it's fun having another person along for the journey. 

As I said, I'm reaching deep to get this train(wreck) back on track. This morning, I noticed that Edna had posted a really neat poem that hit me right where I needed it most: My Mental State. I don't know if she penned the words, or if she copied it somewhere else, so I don't know who deserves credit, but I thought since it was something that inspired me, that perhaps someone else would find it helpful as well. 

Don’t Quit
When you’ve eaten too much and you can’t write it down
And you feel like the biggest failure in town
When you want to give up just because you gave in
And forget about being healthy and thin
So What! You went over your points a bit
It’s the next move you make that counts. ..So don’t you quit!
It’s a moment of truth, it’s an attitude change.
It’s telling yourself “You’ve done great up ‘til now
You can take on this challenge and beat it somehow.”
It’s part of your journey toward reaching your goal.
You’re still going to make it, just stay in control.
To stumble and fall is not a disgrace
If you summon the will to get back in the race.
But, often the strugglers, when losing their grip
Just throw in the towel and continue to slip
And learn too late when the damage is done
That the race wasn’t over and they still could’ve won
Lifestyle change can be awkward and slow
But facing each challenge will help you grow
Success is failure turned inside out
The silver tint in a cloud of doubt
When you’re pushing to the brink, just refuse to submit.
If you bite it, write it..
BUT DON’T YOU QUIT!

Friday, February 10, 2012

5%

Whoever thought such a small number would bring such satisfaction!  Last night at my WI, I reached my 5% goal.  Woo Hoo!!  I'm down a total 11.6 lb.  DJ had her first WI and was down 5 lb in week one! WTG DJ!!!  Our friend Teresa joined last night as well.  Thursdays are Girls' Night Out.  No Boys Allowed.  We weigh, attend the meeting, then have a points-friendly dinner together and catch up on our girl time.  

IT'S ON NOW!!!  While there's the additional benefit of having our own personal cheerleaders at each meeting and during the week... it also brings out a little bit of a competitive spirit in each of us.  Which is a GOOD THING!!  

So YAY for reaching 5%, and YAY for my two friends traveling this road with me.  

Happy Weekend Everyone!!

Thursday, February 2, 2012

Seeing Stars and Onederland!!!

That's right... stars with an "s". As in plural. I have TWO 5-lb stars! This week's WI revealed a 2.6 lb loss, bringing my total loss to 10.6 lb! Most satisfying! Sometimes the scale doesn't reflect the effort we put into the program, and I was kind of afraid that would happen tonight. Even so, I was hoping for a teeny tiny loss, but secretly dreading a gain. Not because I didn't work the program... truly I did... but it's this dastardly GI thing that plagues me. Thankfully, regardless of how I felt physically today, the numbers did indeed reflect my efforts, and I came away very encouraged. I'm so grateful!

My BFF Debbie Jo joined tonight, and that is super exciting! We've been down the WW road together several times in the past, and that girl can really rock it! I'm excited that we'll be doing it together again. 

It's time to re-stock the pantry with my go-to favorites, and maybe try some new things. I'm reminded that this is not a "diet". It is a lifestyle change, and I don't want to burn myself out the same food so early in the program. 

Tomorrow is a busy day, then Saturday my grandchildren are coming for a sleepover. 

Life is good!

EDITED TO ADD: OMG!!!!!! I can't believe I didn't notice this!!! I just went to update my stats for my profile here and guess what??? I am in Onderland!! Well, just barely, but... Just... Wow!!!

Happy Weekend, everyone!